Do-overs:

It's unrealistic of me to expect that I get a do-over for this past summer just because I'm getting two summers in a row. It may be spring again, but that doesn't erase the terrible things that happened over the summer. I can't pretend that all of that never happened.

I keep trying to convince myself that I'll wake up one day and all of this won't have happened. After all, it's springtime when it should be autumn, so that summer must have all been a bad dream. I can tell her not to get into that car, because it hasn't happened yet, in alterna-verse where it's still spring.

And what do you say when strangers ask you if you have any siblings? It's a standard intro question and one that I can't deal with. I usually just say I have a brother, but I feel like somehow I'm slighting her. I have a sister too, after all.