31.3.03

So today totally kicked ass!

First, I got the internship in London (assuming I pass the background check-- I have to get fingerprinted).

Second, I talked to the dean about the internet thing and I now have internet again (and it's only going to be a letter on file with Sherry Gutman-- could have been so much worse. She'll probably put herself to sleep before she gets around to reading it anyway).

Third, my only class today was cancelled. Since this was the beginning of the quarter anyway, there's absolutely no work that I should be doing until at least tomorrow night.

Fourth, I'm taking electronics.

I mean, dude!

Meeting with a dean at 2:00 about getting my network connection in the dorm back. *fingers crossed.*

I woke up this morning at 9:05 am to the phone ringing. Naturally, I was too lazy to pick it up, but I listened to the message the guy left on the machine. He was from the State Department calling about the internship I had applied for in the fall. I assume he wanted to tall me that they didn't get the third copy of some stupid form I had to send in, so I don't bother to answer it. I called him back about 15 minutes ago.

He looked my name up in a computer and told me they had eight positions in London, two in Vienna, and two in Munich. Which did I want?

So I'm working for the economic advisor's office in London this fall!

30.3.03

I decided this page needed a snappy title. After all, everyone else is doing it. So I went for "A hand held over a candle in angst fuelled bravado," the beginning of the Marillion song "Slainte Mhath." The song is about people sitting in bars, talking and writing and lying about history. The singer is powerless to stop any of this, so he just drinks. Sometimes my life feels like this.

It's all becoming a bit more real. This boy was in my cousin's high school class and was friends with a kid I worked with. I even met him once or twice, often enough to remember his face. I didn't know he was in the army though, and I didn't even know he died until yesterday.

I'm going back to Chicago tomorrow. I just want spring break to last for a few more weeks. Went to Emory yesterday and saw the boy and some of my random high school friends. Whenever I'm home, I feel like I've never left. I could just melt back into this life like the last two and a half years didn't happen. But when I'm in Chicago, high school seems so far away, like it happened to someone who isn't really me. I think my conception of time is just all screwed up.

28.3.03

Went to Flanigan's last night to play trivia with my sister and cousin (and two couples my cousin knows-- I'm not sure who they were). We were up by seven points going into the last question (which you can bet up to 15 points on). And we lost because one of the people was convinced that Tchaikovsky had been alive into the twentieth century). I was sure he wasn't, but whatever.


The good:

  • Seeing Jenny and Lynn again.
  • Actually getting into a bar because Atlanta doesn't have a stupid ordinance like Chicago that bans under-21 year-olds from bars.
  • Seeing a cop at the door when I walked out and not trying to run away quickly.

The bad:

  • Well, losing.
  • The creepy old man at the bar who insisted on shaking my hand as I walked in. I was really glad he was gone by the time we left.
  • The fact that I couldn't drink while I was there. Trivia (and singing along to "You're a Trash Girl") is so much more fun when you're drunk.

The weird:

  • Father and son matching tattoos.
  • The DJ who really wanted to know whether cat litter was bitter.

All in all, not a bad night.

27.3.03

You know, with the lack of posts this week you'd think either I was really busy or I didn't have high-speed internet access. Neither is true. My parents finally got with the times and we have DSL at home.

And as for busy. . . All that I did yesterday is go to the best camera store in the world and get my camera fixed. Tomorrow, I think I'm going to go up to Athens and see Terra's show. She's been working on this news program all semester (it even counts as a class), so I'd really like to see it. The laziness is preventing me from wanting to drive that far though. We'll see what wins out.

My father spent last night quizzing me on what I want to do after graduation. My response continues to be "I don't know." Well, I do know, but I don't think he's going to like "run a tequila shack in Mexico" as the capstone of my $130,000 education.

25.3.03

Went to the dentist yesterday and got two cavities filled. My mouth is sore and I keep imagining I hear the drill. I know I should stop bitching about all this stuff, but I'm a wimp.

I'm reading a lot right now. I read A Tree Grows in Brooklyn for about the hundredth time, the first fifty pages of Austerlitz (didn't much like it-- I couldn't get into the plot), and now I'm reading Taibo's The Shadow of the Shadow which is very good. Kind of like Our Man in Havanna or one of the other good Latin-American Graham Greene books.

Oh, and the final I fell asleep in? I got an A- in the class. Go figure.

22.3.03

Well, I made it home yesterday on a pretty uneventful flight. I had the best cabbie I'd had, though, to get to Midway. He came on time, didn't try to take me for a ride (I've had cabbies try to take me practically up to the Loop to get between Midway and the U of C), and didn't talk on his cell phone for the whole ride (just half of it). However, at traffic lights, he wold reach over and punch the passenger seat a couple of times. I don't know.

I got to the airport and made a friend with the guy at the Airtran check in. He worked at a printing press at the Enrico Fermi Institute in high school and went to college in Dubuque. He also knew my name was Irish, and I have a soft spot for people who recognise my name. Anyway, he gave me an emergency exit aisle seat, which was cool.

I got singled out for security screening though. I was really happy they didn't go through my suitcases since they were filled with dirty clothes and it would have been embarassing. Still I had to take off my shoes and display my mismatched socks and get groped by the TSA woman (actual quote, "Oh, that's your bra setting it off"). She was very confused by the metal pin in my elbow, too. The guy went through my purse while I couldn't watch him, which seemed a bit sketchy. Couldn't I accuse them of stealing something? You'd think they'd want me to be there. Still, they were perfectly nice. I just hate airports now. Everyone seems on edge, and periodically over the loudspeaker, we'll hear what level of terrorism alert we're at. The soldiers are gone, but there're cops and federal security guys everywhere. Midway doesn't feel like a glorified bus station anymore, and Hartsfield is worse. I don't think flying will ever be very fun for me again.

The plane was overbooked and they were offering two free roundtrips and lunch to anyone who would rebook on a later flight. They could only put me on the flight that left Midway at 9:00 pm, though, and I couldn't get in touch with my mother who was picking me up at the airport. So no free trips for me.

On the flight, I was sitting next to a Baptist pastor and his daughter (you know this story can't end well, right?). Actually, they were nice, but the man asked me if I was a Christian and had accepted Jesus Christ as my own personal saviour. I figured God would understand if I fibbed a little, so I said yes, no qualification. Maybe I believe in Christ, anyway, and if not, you know, it was going to be a LONG flight with the pastor proselytising the whole damn way. Anyway, I got invited to his church in Mississippi, and his daughter gave me information about her church in Chicago {she seemed surprised I'd never heard of it-- they were active on the south side, apparently) and her cell phone number if I ever wanted to come with her. She even had a car and could pick me up.

Anyway, despite all this, I made it home, slept for nine hours and watched about six hours of TV. A fine evening, all in all.

21.3.03

I don't know this guy, but he has a very interesting account of the antiwar protests in Chicago.

I'm leaving for Atlanta in one hour. Well, to be exact, I'm leaving for Midway in one hour. My flight doesn't leave for three and a half hours. I'm compulsive like that.

It's funny, I'm leaving Chicago just as the weather here starts getting nice. There have been thunderstorms, big, loud, booming things for the past two days. I really love thunderstorms, except when I'm trying to walk to campus in them. Still, it's warm in Atlanta, and the weather's usually pretty good in March, short rainstorms and then sun, so I'm sure it'll be fine.

I'm even kind of looking forward to going home. None of my friends from high school will be around, so I plan on sleeping, catching up on my reading, and watching lots of TV. I imagine it will get boring, but it's only for a week. And I get to see my puppy! The thought of no problem sets or required reading will more than make my week anyway.

20.3.03

OK, this really sucks. I can't even figure out what I'm sharing that anyone would care about. And I don't use that much bandwith, really never more than 5 kbps. Weird.

Greetings,

We have received and confirmed a complaint of copyright infringment against you from an authorized agent acting on behalf of the copyright holder.  Additionally, your machine was using a significant amount of bandwidth for the copyrighted infringment, which is also a violation of the Eligibility and Acceptable Use Policy. Your computer, which was using IP address [removed], has been removed from the campus network and your case has been referred to the Dean of Students for disciplinary action.  They will contact you shortly and your machine must remain off the network until you have met with them and they have sent us confirmation of the meeting.

Thanks,

Conor

I'm done! Done done done done done!!!

As to how the final went, who cares really. But I don't think falling asleep during a final can ever be very good.

I realise the posts on this page have gotten kind of long. Over spring break I plan on doing some blog maintainence (and hopefully fix the archives) so I will fix this then.

I was up till 2 AM watching CNN, making fun of Isaac because he thought Christiane Amanpour was hot, and getting really excited when Anderson Cooper was on. Somehow we ended up watching a really bad episode of Boy Meets World from the college years. Fred Savage played a character who was not supposed to be related to Cory, which was impossible to deal with because they look and sound exactly alike.

It was weird how funny everything was last night. We sat there, watching everything unfold, and made fun of the cheesy graphics and the cheesier anchors, and it was all absolutely hilarious. I know I was exhausted, which might have affected my perception of funny, but I wasn't the only one laughing, and I'm sure someone in that room must have gotten some sleep. Maybe it was just a reaction to the state of affairs, maybe we are just that damn funny, I don't know.

19.3.03

"September 1939"

I sit in one of the dives
On Fifty-second Street
Uncertain and afraid
As the clever hopes expire
Of a low dishonest decade:
Waves of anger and fear
Circulate over the bright
And darkened lands of the earth,
Obsessing our private lives;
The unmentionable odour of death
Offends the September night.

Accurate scholarship can
Unearth the whole offence
From Luther until now
That has driven a culture mad,
Find what occurred at Linz,
What huge imago made
A psychopathic god:
I and the public know
What all schoolchildren learn,
Those to whom evil is done
Do evil in return.

Exiled Thucydides knew
All that a speech can say
About Democracy,
And what dictators do,
The elderly rubbish they talk
To an apathetic grave;
Analysed all in his book,
The enlightenment driven away,
The habit-forming pain,
Mismanagement and grief:
We must suffer them all again.

Into this neutral air
Where blind skyscrapers use
Their full height to proclaim
The strength of Collective Man,
Each language pours its vain
Competitive excuse:
But who can live for long
In an euphoric dream;
Out of the mirror they stare,
Imperialism's face
And the international wrong.

Faces along the bar
Cling to their average day:
The lights must never go out,
The music must always play,
All the conventions conspire
To make this fort assume
The furniture of home;
Lest we should see where we are,
Lost in a haunted wood,
Children afraid of the night
Who have never been happy or good.

The windiest militant trash
Important Persons shout
Is not so crude as our wish:
What mad Nijinsky wrote
About Diaghilev
Is true of the normal heart;
For the error bred in the bone
Of each woman and each man
Craves what it cannot have,
Not universal love
But to be loved alone.

From the conservative dark
Into the ethical life
The dense commuters come,
Repeating their morning vow;
'I will be true to the wife,
I'll concentrate more on my work,'
And helpless governors wake
To resume their compulsory game:
Who can release them now,
Who can reach the dead,
Who can speak for the dumb?

All I have is a voice
To undo the folded lie,
The romantic lie in the brain
Of the sensual man-in-the-street
And the lie of Authority
Whose buildings grope the sky:
There is no such thing as the State
And no one exists alone;
Hunger allows no choice
To the citizen or the police;
We must love one another or die.


Defenseless under the night
Our world in stupor lies;
Yet, dotted everywhere,
Ironic points of light
Flash out wherever the Just
Exchange their messages:
May I, composed like them
Of Eros and of dust,
Beleaguered by the same
Negation and despair,
Show an affirming flame.
-W.H.Auden

So we're at war.

This has been a very Irish week for my posting. So one more won't hurt, right? I downloaded Bloody Sunday from eMule today and (of course) watched it this afternoon instead of studying. Here's my take on the movie.

1) For a great historical treatment of Bloody Sunday, check out the CAIN project. Really, if you want to know anything about the Troubles, I recommend the CAIN project. I can't say enough about how great the site is. I think watching this movie would be pretty hard without some very basic knowledge of the background of the Troubles (ie who are the Provos and who are the paras, why British soldiers were there anyway, etc).

2) During the march itself much of the camerawork was jerky, supposed to look handheld. This technique often comes across as self-consciously arty, but I here I think it fits. It really reminds the viewer of the chaos that the soldiers were experiencing which must have impacted their decision to shoot. It was a bit nauseating to watch, though: maybe a little less would still have gotten the point across without making me want to run to the bathroom to throw up.

3) I'm probably not the right person to ask about the comprehensibility of the accents. I was brought up among accents not very different from the Irish ones (my grandparents and most of their friends were from a city in the north of Ireland, and many of my parents' friends were also). But I had a problem understanding Gerry Donaghy a couple of times with the accent and the mumbling and the bad sound quality. It really didn't detract from the movie though. You didn't need to understand every single line to understand what was going on.

4) About bias. Of course it's present in this movie. It's present in everything. I don't think it's particularly bad in this movie, though. Maybe the director could have emphasised the fear that British soldiers must have felt, the chaos of the moment, the violence of the preceeding days. But it's a two hour long movie and some things have to be demphasised, though they were mentioned in the movie. The director does not hypothesise about who fires first and he does not make the ridiculous claim that no PIRA members were present at the march. All in all, I thought this was a remarkably well-balanced account of a divisive event.

5) More than that, though, it is a really powerful movie. The acting is wonderful, particularly James Nesbitt as MP Ivan Cooper and most of the British paratroopers. A scene in the hospital near the end was really touching. Cooper walks around to talk to people who have lost friends and family to give them the news. All you can hear is people crying and Cooper whispering, too quietly to understand. The camera cuts around to show the faces of the mourners, the faces of the paratroopers, and Cooper himself. It's a truly wonderful piece of filmmaking, and I cried.

I really recommend this movie. It's an explanation of the PIRA's hold on the minds of Catholics in the Six Counties. Bloody Sunday increased enrollment in the PIRA and destroyed the peaceful process towards civil rights for Catholics in Ireland. Many more than thirteen people died as a result of Bloody Sunday.

I think I managed to plan it so I don't even have to leave my room today. I can just sit here in my pajamas and study topology. And wait for the news: will we go to war tonight? I'm starting to feel that sort of generalised dread that one gets when she has a final in 24 hours and can't really bring herself to care because other things seem so much more important.

18.3.03

I forgot to mention earlier, it's Susan's 21st birthday today. Happy birthday, Susan!!

One of my favorite poems ever is John Hewitt's "Neither an Elegy nor a Manifesto: For the people of my province or the rest of Ireland."
"Bear in mind these dead:
I can find no plainer words.
I dare not risk using that
loaded word, Remember,
for your memory is a cruel web
threaded from thorn to thorn across
a hedge of dead bramble, heavy
with pathetic atomies.

I cannot urge or beg you
to pray for anyone or anything,
for prayer in this green island
is tarnished with stale breath,
worn smooth and characterless
as an old flagstone, trafficked
with journeys no longer credible
to lost destinations."

I don't think I really understand the problem of memory in Ireland. Too me, the past was a collection of stories of "our Fenian dead," not the crippling unemployment and discrimination that my grandparents lived through. I can still tell the stories: the young medical student Kevin Barry bravely facing torture rather than reveal his comrades, Roddy McCorley walking to his death in Toome, all the "heroes of '16" who were shot in Kilmainham gaol and buried in quicklime. But all they are to me is stories. To my grandmother, I think they meant more. They were the reminders of the people who died to prevent the discrimination that she had experienced. Eoghan Ruadh O'Niall was not just a folk hero, he was my grandmother's partisan. The past blended with the present in a way I couldn't understand, and I wish I could ask my grandmother about it now, now that I am beginning to understand.

But ultimately the problem isn't necessarily with how what is remembered is remembered. The problem is how it is applied to life in the Six Counties. Whether it's the Protestant parades to remember the victories against Bonnie Prince Charlie or the Catholic boy who joins the IRA because of the stories of Irish heroes of the last 200 years, the past has a negative impact on the living. And that's why Hewitt calls the word "remember" loaded.

So, I finished final number three of four, and there's a sketchy story. A little background first: the guy who taught the class last year (L) posted pretty comprehensive notes online because he's planning on writing a book or something. My professor(who is not L) is really lazy and has been teaching the class from L's online notes. So Will was poking around L's website and found the documents from L's class last year (not that they were hidden or anything: there just wasn't a link on the main page). This included a copy of the final exam from last year, complete with solutions. So when I got up this morning, I went through the final and worked out most of the problems, figuring it would be good practice for my final. And it was in fact damn good practice. One problem on the final I just took was exactly the same as one from L's final and another two problems were damn close (this is out of seven problems). Now, I know this is my professor's fault. He should have written his own damn test. But I still feel kind of sketchy about the whole thing.

All right, Blogger seems to have fixed the bug that was causing problems before. I believe that I have fixed the scripts for Site Meter and I switched the comments over to enetation, which is supposed to be more stable, though a bit slow in the US. If anyone sees any problems with any of these, leave a comment or email me at kathleen-at-uchicago.edu, so I can try to fix it.

17.3.03

When my alarm went off this morning, Powell was giving a press conference saying that the government was going to give up on obtaining a U.N. resolution santioning use of force in Iraq. I don't ususally go into politics here, but two things Powell said struck me. He said "the window of diplomacy is almost over," and a few minutes later, he said something along the lines of "the only way to avoid war is for Saddam and his cohorts to get out of Iraq." That's not diplomacy. That's issuing an ultimatum, and one that Powell cannot expect Saddam possibly to respond to. Why doesn't he just go ahead and declare war?

And St. Patrick's Day, arrgh. I think I'm going to haul off and hit the next person I see with a "Kiss Me, I'm Irish" pin. You know, I have lots of stereotypes to reinforce anyway. That reminds me of something funny. I was at a Borders on the north side and they had an Irish history theme. Only all of the books were about myth and tourism, not history at all. What's up with that?

Bio final this afternoon. It's so beautiful right now. I just want to go take a nap in the sunshine.

16.3.03

OK, I've been unable to do anything all afternoon, so the promised post about stuff I did yesterday.

I went to the Point yesterday afternoon, and it was beautiful. The lake has pretty much melted, but you can see an ice shelf out on the horizon. There were little chunks of ice floating around the water, and the ducks were diving for food. I didn't realise they could stay under so long; every time I watched one go under, I'd wait for it to come back up. It took so long that the first few times I was afraid the duck had died under there. I did get a little Bio done, sitting on the rocks there, but not enough. Never enough.

Came home, messed around the rest of the afternoon, watched Trading Spaces, and was ready to sit down to work. But I couldn't get the notes for ODE to work, and I figured that had to be a sign from someone, so I IMed Ruthie and ended up agreeing to go to a party with her. Will was over and I tried to get him and Amanda to talk me out of going to the party, but I failed. I walked about half a block to the Maroon party.

I went up the back stairs to the apartment because Ruthie had told me to and start walking through the apartment looking for her. Some guy hits me on the shoulder and says "Deutschland." That would have been a good deal weirder if I hadn't been wearing that jacket that every pretentious rich kid Commie owns. You know the jacket I'm talking about. It's army green, with pockets and epaulets and has the German flag on each shoulder (in my defense, I bought mine in Florence for 4000 lire because it was raining and kind of cold. The jacket's been very good to me. It served as part of the best Halloween costume ever. When I was working at the movie theater, we had to dress up for Halloween one year. I was Che Guevara, complete with mirrored sunglasses, black beret, boots, black tee-shirt, and of course, my trusty jacket with little red things pinned over the German flags.).

Anyway, I found Ruthie, we stayed about half an hour, and then we left. On the way out, I saw Chris but didn't talk to him and when we were outside, Andrew (side note, I think I have a little bit of a crush on Andrew. He's tall, he's funny, and I seem to have a prediliction for the name Andrew.). There was a group of people leaving with us who were going to go climb a church and a guy who was VERY concerned about his shotglass getting stolen. With another girl from Ruthie's house, we decided to go to this party up at Haymarket House and started walking up there. When we got to the corner of 57th and Dorchester, we saw a drunk van sitting there (that's a van from the U of C's late night shuttle service, not a van that had been celebrating St. Patrick's Day). Ruthie went up to the driver.
Ruthie: Are you on duty?
Him: Are you the person who called?
R: Yes. No.
H: Which is it?
R: Yes.
H: You're going to the Shoreland?
R: No, we changed our mind. Can you take us to 53rd and Ridgewood?
So we got a ride to the party. When we got there, the place was pretty quiet, but we heard some music around the side. We went around to investigate, and there were about 30 people in the basement. Clearly the party had been much cooler earlier, and there were still remnants of that. But we stayed about 5 minutes and then left (Maggie's clearly rubbing off on me). We started walking back, and Ruthie called someone in the party. He said the cops were breaking it up, so we decided not to go back in.

I got home about 3:00 and got up at 8:45 to go to breakfast at Orange. It was very good (and there was frushi), even if there was a disturbing picture of an emaciated, shirtless man at Oak Street Beach on the wall.

Hey, if you go to the University of Chicago search page and type in "blog," I'm the number 2 hit. How cool is that?
Anyway, I had an interesting day, but I have to get up ass-early in the morning and it is 2:49 am, so I'll write more about that later.

15.3.03

Regulations about heat iin apartments n the city of Chicago. Not so relevant right now since the weather is beautiful. Still. . .

What if I do not get enough heat in the winter?

If your apartment is too cold, you should keep careful records of the temperature of your apartment. Do this three times a day every day. If your landlord is responsible for heating your apartment, and the heat is usually below the City code regulations, they you should notify your landlord in writing that the landlord must bring the heat up to the City’s regulations. The Chicago Housing Code states that between September 15 and June 1 the temperature in your apartment should be at least:

65 degrees at 7:30 a.m.
68 degrees from 8:30 a.m. to 10:30 p.m.
63 degrees from 10:30 p.m. to 7:30 a.m.

If your landlord does not respond to your notice you should contact the City’s Heat Hotline at 312-744-5000, your local community group and a lawyer. Follow the steps described above to give a notice to your landlord and exercise your rights to remedy the problem.

14.3.03

So I'm officially done with my job for this quarter! So exciting. This problem set was generally uneventful, except that I think one kid in my class has a pathological fear of staplers. Susan suggested I should call SCRS to see if some counseling would help. I wrote on his homework: "I almost didn't take this because it wasn't stapled AGAIN. You need to either invest in a stapler or go to ANY library/USITE and borrow theirs." This was really pissing me off. I contemplated "losing" one page of his homework since, you know, they weren't all attached. But I didn't. Then I was happy when he didn't do very well. Am I a petty bitch? Absolutely.

I was standing at one of those computers on the first floor of the Reg, checking my email (I know, shocking-- me, checking my email) when a big Indian guy comes up and yells at me: "I don't know who that guy is." He proceeds to tell me that his screen name was bjmick (or some variant of that spelling), and that that sounds like a porn name. Then he wants to know why everyone hates Winnie the Pooh. The moral of this story: I have to get out of the Reg. I think I'm going crazy.

Uggh, tired. Really have nothing to say. The usual state of affairs, only magnified.
So, some fun links:
These people went on a massive 200-day road trip across the US. On day 55, they stayed in Chicago. In my dorm. Cool, hunh? They're now biking across Australia. I'm so jealous. Will and Maggie, can we go on a road trip this summer? Preferrably to Australia?

Last summer, I took a minicourse on random number generation that was one of the three most boring things I've ever done (points for anyone who can guess the other two). So I was vaguely excited by this site, which will generate nonrandom numbers for you.

The Vent is easily the best thing in the AJC. Not that that's saying much. Still, it's usually vaguely amusing and sometimes even laugh out loud funny. My favorite recent vent: "To the man with the "I'm with the Lord" bumper sticker: That doesn't qualify you for the HOV lane."

I promise I'll put up actual content in the morning. Honest.

12.3.03

I was sitting on my bed grading problem sets, and I suddenly noticed I had a headache and my eyes hurt a little. I wrote it off as nothing, until I smelled something funny. I knid of sniffed around and didn't notice anything, until I smelled one of the homeworks. It reeked of pot.

Well, this is sort of funny. An exact transcription of my notes from Bio on Monday:

diversity w/in crop, field - good
monoculture - bad - but allows machine reaping
"I'm a corn bug worm. Not me, but the bug."
diversity - fools bugs/worms/etc
(1) pathogenicity - resistant strains "arms race"
(2) GMOs
_____________________________________________________

"The fungus had the upper hand"
CRACK!
30
I think he's sying Charleton Heston is Shrek. or mabe Frankenstein
Corn in the Midwest. . . a shock!!
(SAFETY)
Don't know consequences of GMOs
13
because new things are bad.
Ab fe male heterozygous
\ /
(F1) 2Ab, AA, bb
10
Mmm, pasta.
|
limitations of selection
5
"Honest Jim" Watson
bact DNA plasmid
3
1
0
-1

It's 9:56 am, my paper's due in 34 minutes, and it's printing. So short of something catastrophic with the printer, I'm going to make it!

11.3.03

God, I really love Marillion. Some samples of lyrics:

"The thief of Baghdad hides in Islington now
Praying deportation for his sacred cow
A legacy of romance from a twilight world
The dowry of a relative mystery girl
A Vietnamese flower, a Dockland union
A mistress of release from a magazine's thighs
Magdalenes contracts more than favours
The feeding hands of western promise hold her by the throat
[...]
Where are the prophets, where are the visionaries, where are the poets
To breach the dawn of the sentimental mercenary"
-Fugazi

"I act the role in classic style of a martyr carved with twisted smile
To bleed the lyric for this song to write the rites to right my wrongs
An epitaph to a broken dream to exorcise this silent scream
A scream that's borne from sorrow

I never did write that love song, the words just never seemed to flow"
-Script for a Jester's Tear

"And the man from the magazine, wants another shot of you all curled up
'Cos you look like an actor in a movie shot.
But you're feeling like a wino in a parking lot
How did I get in here anyway?
Do we really need a playback of the show?
'Cos the wideboys want to head for the watering holes

Let's go

And the man in the mirror has sad eyes"
-Heart of Lothian

I could quote so much more, but I won't. If you want tracks, im me at Hadron1982 (AIM). Also, Steve Hogarth. Is hot.



Tonight was a bit surreal, really. I decided I'd go be social and hang out downstairs, so I could edit my paper and watch TV at the same time. So we watched the Daily Show, and then about five minutes of that crap with Colin Quinn, and then Ian decided he wanted to watch Orgazmo.
First, Trey Parker as the innocent Mormon turned porn star Joe Young, looks almost exactly like our Mormon RH would look without glasses. Too disturbing for me, so I pretended they didn't look alike. La la la la la, I can't hear you. I'm 6.
Second, at the end of the night, we somehow managed to get on the subject of this guy's ass and whether it existed. He was really concerned that he couldn't be a porn star without an ass and kept asking for an objective opinion about its existence.
And then Ian and I ran away.

I better get mad hits from this entry. I got Mormon, porn star, and ass in.

10.3.03

I've been working on this paper for Civ about political life under the Roman principate, but I've been having a hard time writing it. I think I've finally figured out why: I find this period of history really depressing. I'm not naive enough to imagine that the Roman republic was this wonderful system of representative government, that allowed all classes of society to affect the course of their government, that it was particularly fair, that it was even representative in the sense that we mean representative. Still, though, this system was more stable than the Athenian democracy and more representative than eastern dictatorships. Being a citizen gave you certain rights: the right to avoid torture and to appeal to the Senate in cases of judgement against you. Even the poor, through the power of the tribunes, had some say in the government. And it lasted 500 years. A system that produced a Cicero when it was almost spent must have had some good in it.

And the reign of Augustus is the beginning of the end of that. Whether he really meant for this to happen or not (and I don't think he did), the Roman Republic is gone and replaced with a system that I consider objectively worse. The system is less stable (or at least, will be in a hundred years), under Caracalla, everyone gets the citizenship and it becomes essentially meaningless as a distinction. The power of the people, such as it was, is replaced by that of the Senate, and is essentially destroyed by the power of the emperor. And what's left? A system that still pretends to be oligarchic; all aspirants to imperial office must get support of the Senate, but they get this support by military force. As Dio says, monarchy has returned to Rome.

I don't really think Rome could have survived as a republic. It had grown too large for the communications of the time to sustain this system. But that doesn't mean I have to enjoy reading about the end of the republic.

9.3.03

I didn't get a fortune in my fortune cookie at Pierce tonight. What does that mean? My personal theory: I'm going to die of hypothermia walking home tonight, so the cookie decided it wasn't worth its time to give me a fortune. Hmm, maybe I'll take the bus back.

Ruthie turned 21 today. So naturally, there was a party last night. Since Ruthie was involved, there was Franzia (yes, that's right it comes in a box. Even worse, there's a plastic bag inside that actually holds the wine. During our first year, Ruthie could only fit the plastic bag in her fridge, so she had a "bladder" of wine. Yes, that's gross).
You know it's going to be a good party when the alcohol supply is described as "Plenty of cheap beer, homemade wine punch for the ladies, maybe some tequila or vodka and mixers? Hmm, I guess I'll just scope out the store and get as much as I can." (Hi, mom). It really was a good party, too. I saw people I haven't seen in forever, mainly old Hendus. I found out I'm not the only person who's stopped going to ODE. About 1:00, some guy from the 68s claimed that he broke the party after standing on a chair with a guitar. No, I really don't know. I didn't stay that late and didn't drink that much (shut up), but I apparently have no alcohol tolerance anymore. I got home, watched about 15 minutes of Horsefeathers, and dragged myself to bed. I woke up about 10:15, when the girl who lives next door to me, for reasons known only to her and God, started blasting Lifeteen music. If you go to that website, check out the desktop icons (in the downloads section). The empty recycle bin is a person coming out of confession.
So yeah. Happy birthday, Ruthie.

7.3.03

Course Evaluations for Autumn 2002 are up. Sadly, these can only be read on the U of C server, so here are some highlights.

Comments from the class that I TA'd--
About the instructor--
Difficult to understand :4
Does not always explain of [sic] teach things well
Handwriting was difficult to read
Instructor did not tell students the material covered for examinations

About me--
TA held problem sessions, that were beneficial to students progress
TA was unenthusiastic [guilty -- ed]
TA was helpful.

Too bad I didn't get to fill out an evaluation...

From Complex:
Reminded me why I wanted to major in this subject [Might be my comment, I don't remember -- ed]
TA seemed to get irritated if he had to explain something multiple times

From the endlessly long Byzantine History class:
Q: Which texts were most useful? Which least? A: Didn't read enough to say.
Just sort of rambled
he gave stream of consciousness lectures
Has a semi-rambling lecture style
a tendency to ramble [sense a theme here? -- ed]

Amusing stuff from old quarters--
From physics with Mr. Crack addict:
Obviously been a long time since he's taught first years his theories and the way to teach were poorly suited to the class and probably teaching in general. His rant about ineptitude of other physicists and things should be, while entertaining, at first became stock, caused me to lose all interesting in pursuing physics further.
Not all of us know how to build hang-gliders. Especially not from jungle-tree leaves. He's [sic] teaching methods were confusing, the logical progressions was difficult to follow. [because of the CRACK -- ed]
Don't let [professor] teach anything. Or only grad courses.
This course made me not want to be a physics major. Thanks. Also, actually having a textbook would be nice.

From Music 101:
The book was fine, the Mozart was unnecessary.
[A description of the instructor:] Pretentious
This course was an outrage. The work load for a 101 class was absurd. We had 4 papers, a midterm, and a final

God, I just want to sleep. I'm so tempted just to withdraw from all my classes, quit my job, and consider my quarter done now. I know I can't do this; I'd just have to retake these classes and the math department still owes me $450, and if I quit, I don't see any of that money. So, back to work, I guess.

6.3.03

Fun things about the name Moriarty:
It comes from the Gaelic word Muircheartaigh (with some appropriate accents, pronounced something like Mir-art-tye) which means "the navigator" or (less likely) from The Gaelic words "Mor" ("great") and "artach"("exalted"). The name became "Murtagh" in Leinster, Murtaugh in Scotland, and Moriarty in County Kerry.
It's one of the older Gaelic names. It can be traced back at least as far as 1210 and its origin is Castlemaine on the Dingle peninsula. The Muircheartaigh clan were the rulers of west Munster in the fourteenth century.
The coat of arms is a black, double headed eagle.
Famous Moriartys include Prof. Moriarty of Sherlock Holmes fame, actors Michael and Cathy, the voice of the Gaelic League in Ireland, Michael, and some guy who flew a plane under the Eiffel Tower in 1948.
Moriarty is about the sixth most common name in County Kerry, but it is found almost exclusively there. In 1840, of the 145 families named Moriarty in the census, 142 of them lived in Kerry.

5.3.03

In a Poughkeepsie, NY shopping mall, two men were stopped by security guards while wearing T-shirts that said "Give peace a chance." One removed his shirt (which had just been bought in the mall, so I assume he had another shirt on under it), the other refused. The security guards called the cops and had him arrested for trespassing. The police used the analogy of a mall to a private house, which the man (who is a lawyer-- not sure what kind) said was false. I'm putting a question out there in the hope that someone who knows far more about this than I do (Will? Amanda?) would answer it. There's some fundamental difference between a home and a mall, right? For example, if I decide not to let any black people in my house, the law can't stop me. But if the proprietor of a shopping mall barred black people from entering, there would be a legal problem. The distinction seems to me to be between public and private space. So what is the justification for arresting this man for trespassing in the mall? He wasn't causing a disturbance. The shirt wasn't obscene. Why wasn't this protected free speech? I feel like the mall (and the police) must have a stronger leg to stand on than "It's like a house-- I can tell you to leave if I want" but I don't know what it is.

In other news, it's snowing, I'm at the Reg, and I'm hungry. If you cared.

Blessed sister, holy mother, spirit of the fountain, spirit of the garden,
Suffer us not to mock ourselves with falsehood
Teach us to care and not to care
Teach us to sit still
Even among these rocks,
Our peace in His will
And even among these rocks
Sister, mother
And spirit of the river, spirit of the sea,
Suffer me not to be separated

And let my cry come unto Thee.

From Ash Wednesday, by T.S. Eliot

4.3.03

Funny story of the day: I went to a professor's office hours to talk about a paper that I'm trying to write. About five minutes in to the conversation, I noticed his screensaver, which was on the computer sort of behind his head. It looked like a magnifying glass that bounced back and forth over the text on his screen. I was completely mesmerised by it. A couple of minutes later he said, "Isn't my screensaver cool? I can't stop looking at it either; that's why I have to keep my back to it" (or words to that effect). In the immortal words (word?) of the woman at the check-in counter at Raleigh-Durham airport last year, "Uhhh-ohhhhhhh."

3.3.03

Things I've learned in classes in the past week:
1) Columbus came to America on a Fullbright scholarship
2) Linnaeus' first name was "Chuck"
3) one is greater than infinity
4) econ majors, linguists, and Swedes don't like to talk
5) Tacitus was Ridley Scott's screenwriter (though in fairness, I was drifting off to sleep for this one and I might have gotten it wrong. But Ridley Scott, Tacitus, and screenwriter were mentioned in the same sentence)
6) point-set topology was invented in Iceland

And my friends wonder why I skip so many classes!

I walked down onto the A-level of the Reg this morning after my 10:30 class to check my email and generally kill time before my class at 12:30. And when I get to the bottom of the stairs, what do I see? The entire bank of computers to the left of the door is gone! The only remaining computers are the four with the exra high stools to the right. What am I going to do? The computers were so young, and just yesterday they were alve and ready for me to check my email on. They provided portals to Television Without Pity and Nationstates. And now they're gone. Gone. Right now, I'm in the MacLab, and it's just not the same thing. I miss you, oh A-level compters, though I hardly knew ye.

In happier news, according to Yahoo search, I'm the #19 result for fighting foodons recipe.

2.3.03

"That night in bed I thought of something that happened twenty years ago during the war of independence. About five o'clock on an October evening Seamus Mor and Oweneen Mahon came to the door and asked for an envelope and pen and paper. I asked what they wanted them for.
"'Just give them to us, Father, and don't ask any questions.'
"Then I noticed two others a distance away holding a man in a British uniform between them, his hands behind his back. A young man. An officer from the stripes on his arm. The two had leggings and bandoliers and I didn't need to ask who they were. There had been bad trouble the week before in West Cork. I noticed Oweneen was leaning on a spade.
""I will give you nothing of the sort,' I said, 'and if what's in your mind is what I think you're thinking, in the name of Jesus Christ who died for us, put it out of your mind at once.'
"'Give it to them, Father,' said one of the two holding the officer.
"'That I will not,' I said.
"Then the Englishman said in his accent, 'I'd appreciate very much if you would be so kind.' He must have been no more than twenty-one or two. I gave pen and paper to Seamus Mor. I shut the door in their faces and prayed all through that long night. From five o'clock on, I was straining my ears. I heard the shot at six o'clock, barely heard it, plucked by the wind. Oweneen was at my door half an hour later with the envelope. It was addressed to a Mrs Someone, someplace in Surrey, England, I remember. He was sweating and he had the spade over his shoulder. There was fresh clay on it.
"'Take that down to the post-office, Father,' he said, 'and let no one know your business.'
"'May God forgive you,' I said, 'and Seamus too. You've done an evil thing.'
"'Stay out of it, Father,' he said."

-Brian O'Doherty
The Deposition of Father McGreevy

I brought my laptop to the Reg today, along with a power cord and an ethernet cable. Right now, I'm sitting in the A-level Reading Room, pretending to work on my Civ paper. Really, of course, I'm surfing the web, occasionally reading five pages of Tacitus or Cassius Dio, and generally getting nothing done. Now, of course, I need to get up and go get a copy of the CAH and this collection of essays and maybe a journal or two. I know this is the U of C and nothing gets stolen, but still-- my laptop. So I have to pack it up and take it with me, feeling vaguely like an oversuspicious idiot. Oh well.

"And freaking Slash [from GnR] watches Trading Spaces. That's like finding out Axl Rose is in my Gramma's quilting society." -tobey

1.3.03

Hmm. I went downtown with Amanda yesterday because her coffee maker broke and she needed a new one from Sears. Then we went to Borders since I had a gift card and Amanda wanted tea. And, of course, I bought more books. Keep in mind I have no bookshelf space, $11 in my checking account, and little time to read. The last book I read was a Dick Francis mystery. And here I am buying Yeats' Irish Fairy Tales, Ishiguro's the Unconsoled, and a book that was shortlisted for the Booker Prize that is set in County Kerry.

But yeah. I was planning to grade some problem sets last night so that I could work on m Civ paper today. The problem sets are still sitting in a pile on my floor and I went to the Recipe instead. My biggest grading pet peave: some of the kids still don't staple. I think it's time for the trick I learned from another TA. When you staple the papers, rather than stapling just the top left corner, you staple once on each side, so that it's difficult to open the paper without tearing it. Apparently, this encourages stapling. We shall see.

Must go work now, so I can get paid and be able to pay off my credit card bill.